Feelings

It's 3 in the morning, woke up with a pain in my left leg after stretching it. I still want to go to work but my legs won't, funny because no matter how painful it is, but I'll still prefer this said pain rather than the pain in the heart. I want to talk about "the feelings" for now. Have you ever have this feelings? The feeling of happiness, the feeling of emptiness, the feeling of guilt, the feeling of satisfaction or contentment, the feeling of sadness or loneliness and the feeling of nothing.

The feeling of happiness - I experienced this almost all of the time, I'm happy because I'm satisfied with everything and I can't ask for anything anymore. I'm not rich and I don't have everything if we're talking about material things but I have love. I love everyday and I'm living it as if it's my last day here on earth, I don't let a day pass without resolving arguments with my loved ones if there is. I just can't and this is me, I usually do the reaching out stage. I don't know if its the right thing to do though. Until there was one time that I became upset, it's only my opinion and I think there's no right or wrong with that. My opinion is different from his'. I am so selfish that all I was thinking is myself at that time without knowing what's going on with him. I still want to work it out and trust me when I say I'm still working out with it.It was this time that I'm feeling sad and lonely. Nothing in me is working, I'm like a disabled person with only one thing in my body that is working which I wished it's not. The "heart".