same way too...

There's something I wanted to tell you that I think you really ought to know. I love you, this feeling doesn't come along everyday, now is my chance to tell you how  much I love you. My heart has a mind of its own, it can go far just to be near you. Everytime you're near me I noticed the stars are twinkling or am I just having a wishful thinking? I'm saving all my love for you and I need to know if you feel the same way too.

Feelings

It's 3 in the morning, woke up with a pain in my left leg after stretching it. I still want to go to work but my legs won't, funny because no matter how painful it is, but I'll still prefer this said pain rather than the pain in the heart. I want to talk about "the feelings" for now. Have you ever have this feelings? The feeling of happiness, the feeling of emptiness, the feeling of guilt, the feeling of satisfaction or contentment, the feeling of sadness or loneliness and the feeling of nothing.

The feeling of happiness - I experienced this almost all of the time, I'm happy because I'm satisfied with everything and I can't ask for anything anymore. I'm not rich and I don't have everything if we're talking about material things but I have love. I love everyday and I'm living it as if it's my last day here on earth, I don't let a day pass without resolving arguments with my loved ones if there is. I just can't and this is me, I usually do the reaching out stage. I don't know if its the right thing to do though. Until there was one time that I became upset, it's only my opinion and I think there's no right or wrong with that. My opinion is different from his'. I am so selfish that all I was thinking is myself at that time without knowing what's going on with him. I still want to work it out and trust me when I say I'm still working out with it.It was this time that I'm feeling sad and lonely. Nothing in me is working, I'm like a disabled person with only one thing in my body that is working which I wished it's not. The "heart".

It's been awhile

It's been awhile,
Since I first felt ur warm embrace.
It's been awhile,
Since I felt ur tender kisses.

It's been awhile,
Since I felt contented.
It's been awhile,
Since I felt joy.

It's been awhile,
Since I felt I had a purpose.
It's been awhile.
It's been awhile.

How to be happy?

Tried getting busy in work and in the house
but i still feel empty.
Maybe this is because of my sickness,
been sick every now and then
just dont know why.

Is it because of the food I ate?
Is it because of my environment?
Is it becuase of my feelings?
Is it because of loneliness?

It's raining here again,
my friend usually associates the rain as sadness.
She might be sad right now,
and wants me to acknowledge it.

I always loved the rain,
since I was a kid I always prayed for rain.
It's just now that it makes me sad,
Felt cold and alone too.

I'm so sick of it.
I've always said "I had enough."
But my actions didn't connive
with my painful thoughts.

I hate you! I despise and loathe you!
Please stay away with me.
You detrimental-negative thoughts.
Go away please....